Thursday, May 10, 2018

Streak of Misery

There’s blood in too many of them, I suppose
But it’s so red and bright like liquid fire
And I grew up singing about its power
And lived with a guy who was a vampire.
And when you see it, there’s usually pain
And when you lose it all you’ve lost everything
And when its pressure is too high, you might die
and then pressure just drops to not a thing.
But maybe it’s just because it is so shocking
Except that I do it too much till it’s dull
Maybe it’s just because it is just so pretty
But you can be too used to beautiful.
That bright red streak of misery delights
me against the falsehood of vast white (k)nights
I believe ignorance is really bliss
I believe this with a book in my hand
While trying to know, I still believe this.
It burns, but I try to understand.
And I was happier when not knowing
And my soul still seeks to know even more
And sadomasochistic researching
And I’m an academic pimp-bruised whore
But I study to show myself approved
Except that I do it to show that I’m smart
Maybe I just like the way that it hurts
But you can be sure it tears me apart.
That bright red streak of misery delights
me against the falsehood of vast white (k)nights
I thought there were political answers
to the problems, and cures for social ills
and that art could save those who Jesus missed
and peace could come through those who the war kills
And I still do like the Constitution
And a nice impressionistic painting
And a ringing heavy metal balad
And I have passed out from breath abating
But there is nothing in a President
Except another guy who’s prob’ly wrong
Maybe a pain-filled poem can ease the pain
But there’s no panacea in a song.
That bright red streak of misery delights
me against the falsehood of vast white (k)nights

Monday, May 7, 2018

Zombie Tonight

This week I spent too many nights sober
I was left thinking about all the things
I thought when I was younger I’d do older
And about how cheaply I sold my dreams.

But I didn’t see the rising plague to come
music and magic would not be enough
I didn’t know how bad I’d need a gun
I thought that living on the streets was tough

But now I’ve broken to the other side
The grass here’s not as dank and not as green
And the truth of the matter is a lie
And only the broken know what I mean 
Zombies don’t feel mind altering effects
Zombies don’t care about what’s coming next

Why can’t the necromancer let me rest?
Why can’t the soil keep me safe underneath?
Why not just stop with sins I’ve confessed?
Why do I still have to eat but not breathe?

But I didn’t know that sex was a drug
Or drugs were just sex for that matter
I didn’t see that shame was a wine jug
That hope was just cake to make you fatter

But now I’ve broken to the other side
The grass here’s not as dank and not as green
And the truth of the matter is a lie
And only the broken know what I mean. 
Zombies don’t feel mind altering effects
Zombies don’t care about what’s coming next

I’ll use one bullet over and over
To change my mind and to splatter my brain
I miss because I have too much cover
Provided by walls, Provided by pain

Do you know cantrips to mend my cracked soul?
My pain’s invisible until it strikes.
Then it fires its round and it leaves its hole
Reverberating in an open mic.

But now I’ve broken to the other side
The grass here’s not as dank and not as green
And the truth of the matter is a lie
And only the broken know what I mean 
Zombies don’t feel mind altering effects
Zombies don’t think about what’s wrong or right.
Zombies don’t care about what’s coming next
And I want to be a Zombie tonight. 
Zombies don’t feel mind altering effects
If you shoot them down, they do not mind
Zombies don’t care what’s coming next
Zombies don’t care what they left behind 

Zombies don’t feel mind altering effects
Zombies don’t feel hate or love when they fight
Zombies don’t care what’s coming next
And I want to be a zombie tonight 
Zombies don’t feel hate or love when they fight. 
And I want to be a zombie tonight.